The Power of Freeman 4/16/2013

Ah first post in a while. There's a reason. I've been in gaming isolation. This means that I've found a game so delightfully frustrating, puzzling and entertaining that I've stayed up hour after hour in my continued attempts to beat it. What game is this, dare you ask? First, allow me to tell you the backstory. I have always been up until a few months ago...a conservative gamer. That's right, I've tried to stay within my gaming boundaries I set for myself and play only games in that small sector. This, in turn, cut me off from awesome titles. Then, I was at a thrift store and found one disc that would change all this. Half Life: Game of the Year Edition. I was excited beyond belief because when you register this game you got a TON of classic Valve games. I was skeptical but bought it anyways. Over the next month I succesfully beat all three of the classic Half Life games (original, Blue Shift, and Opposing Force).

I was entranced. Never before had a FPS gotten my attention as this series had and I craved more. But then reality set in and I was unable to buy Half Life 2. I was torn. THEN...one of my good friends showed me a special website. Contained within its pages was another Half Life...Black Mesa Source. I downloaded immediately  waited two hours for the files to copy to my PC and downloaded the game without hesitation. I've been playing near non-stop between school and chores and have got only so far. If you've ever played Half Life you know the game lasts a long time. And with this ones updated designs and puzzles I can't see myself finishing anytime soon. I can only imagine what the Nihilith will be like.

On another, more melancholy note, I hope you can spare the time to pray for the people in Boston.

Just one minute of a prayer if you can manage. 

Have strength.

Dayum Guys, I'm Sorry XD 4/2/2013

It seems (after reading my past few posts and beyond) that I have forgotten the direction of this blog. And ya know, I never meant for that to happen. This was meant for me to use as a blog not an outlet for my pain and I wanted to apologize personally for that. I hope you can all find it in your hearts to forgive me and keep reading because I will be posting far more often now that things are kinda looking up. Now that my pity-party is winding down and my emo is going home bit by bit I hope that you can all see past those flaws and continue reading. In addition...I have some big news that comes in two parts.

First of all...I confessed for the first time in my entire life. The crush I've had for a long time (like...a solid crush for at least 6 months) was playing an April Fools joke on me. It wasn't a very funny joke at all, to be honest. He played depressed like he was quitting everything and even Skype and bailing on my and everyone else and even fakes logging off. My reaction was to say "DON'T. WAIT. I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU YET". At this point I was in tears I was to flipped out (see, not funny at all). He came back on and said "April Fools!" and then...asked..."Tell me what?" After a ton and I mean a ton of prying (and maybe a little emotional support from one of my good friends) I finally told him. I was sooooo emotional and scared I even made him promise to not laugh and that nothing would change between us if I told him. Of coursem he was flattered and told me that it was the first time someone had confessed to him.

Then I got a little pinch of dissapointment. He did turn me down. But I took it remarkably well. I thanked him for not overreacting and said that he has had the same thoughts a few times but would prefer to have me as a friend because he's not looking for someone more than a friend. The way he worded it and the kindness he showed that I was upsetting myself was appreciated and according to my friend (who has dated before) I took rejection like a pro (haha). I'm not that bad off for first confession/rejection. I'm actually content with myself and know that we will still be good friends. And who knows what the future holds. Maybe as we grow up he may change his mind a little. I'm not getting my hopes up but that would be nice.

So...yeah! I'll be posting more often and more positively in the future. Take care, everyone!