First of all...I confessed for the first time in my entire life. The crush I've had for a long time (like...a solid crush for at least 6 months) was playing an April Fools joke on me. It wasn't a very funny joke at all, to be honest. He played depressed like he was quitting everything and even Skype and bailing on my and everyone else and even fakes logging off. My reaction was to say "DON'T. WAIT. I HAVEN'T TOLD YOU YET". At this point I was in tears I was to flipped out (see, not funny at all). He came back on and said "April Fools!" and then...asked..."Tell me what?" After a ton and I mean a ton of prying (and maybe a little emotional support from one of my good friends) I finally told him. I was sooooo emotional and scared I even made him promise to not laugh and that nothing would change between us if I told him. Of coursem he was flattered and told me that it was the first time someone had confessed to him.
Then I got a little pinch of dissapointment. He did turn me down. But I took it remarkably well. I thanked him for not overreacting and said that he has had the same thoughts a few times but would prefer to have me as a friend because he's not looking for someone more than a friend. The way he worded it and the kindness he showed that I was upsetting myself was appreciated and according to my friend (who has dated before) I took rejection like a pro (haha). I'm not that bad off for first confession/rejection. I'm actually content with myself and know that we will still be good friends. And who knows what the future holds. Maybe as we grow up he may change his mind a little. I'm not getting my hopes up but that would be nice.
So...yeah! I'll be posting more often and more positively in the future. Take care, everyone!
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