No Power! 10/30/2012

Of course, we have to live in the area with 50,000+ power outages. I just can't win, can I? Well, I realize I haven't posted in a while. Its kind of tough to post when the internet turns off at 9 and I cannot let my parents read over my shoulder anymore. They still do, needless to say. I hate it when they do that. Its like their are either so bored they just want to read what I write or they don't trust me enough. Whatever the case, the whole family is sitting in Panera Bread using their power and wifi while our house remains in total darkness. That's mostly why I'm posting so early. I don't know if I'll be able to post anything at all tonight. Its a big disappointment but what are you gonna do? Nothing you can do. Since its not too late in the day, I have nothing huge to report. I can assure the internet that I will stay safe through all of Sandy. I promise. As soon as things ease up and we get power back, I'll post more often.

You Can't Stop Me 10/24/2012

The art academy will be difficult to get to tomorrow as many streets in the city are closing for a stupid reason. DARN YOU! My mom says it might be too difficult to get to by car so she might not pick me up after it ends which means I can't go. I say I'm going because stuff like this is too important to miss. I would walk there if I had to! Seriously, she can't think that little of me that she would cut off my free Photoshop on the day the teacher introduces the pens to go with our tablets. THIS is something I am totally unwilling to miss. That's it for my rage, I guess. The rest is actually pretty happy.

Since I got my english required reading book today I can finally clear out all these overdue lessons I've had sitting about for quite some time. All I have to do is a project and the rest should just flow off easily. Well, as far as I can tell one of the characters is mentally deficient and the other is a real ass. That's just chapter one so I can only imagine the boring reading I'll be poking down my throat like dry chicken. To quote Sheogorath the Daedric Prince of Madness "Do you mind? I'm doin' the fishstick! Its a very delicate state of mind!" SEE? That didn't even make sense! I need to go to bed. Night dudes.

In celebration of Korra's awesomeness...have three gifs today.

When does the ACTION begin? 10/23/2012

I am up...this late at night...working on a school project that was due today. I know, its bad to put things off and its not good at all to be late but she dropped the due date on us last minute and I scrambled to finish it. I just need to solve one more equation and I can bag and tag this sucker. I'm a major procrastinator if you can't already tell. I am also late in my English class as I just received the book I'm supposed to finish my Friday today. It's probably one of those dry, old books that puts you to sleep. Its "Of Mice and Men". IT even sounds boring. I was hoping it was a twisted tale of experiments on mice and humans but nope, its about two dude farmers who may or may not have a thing for each other. Let's just get this over with.

On another note, my brother really knows how to piss our family members off. All he does is disagree, insult what you like and poke fun at you until you explode on him and he either laughs or acts like he did nothing wrong. He's a spoiled little brat who need to have his lips stapled shut to prevent him from tearing our hearts and minds to pieces. Seriously, grow up. Are you that stupid and so mainstream that being mean and cruel is our only form of entertainment? That's called...BULLYING.

Today in the art academy class we went over more Photoshop basics! BORING. I know how to use this up and down and I've only used it for a whole 4 hours total. It has a lot of the same features as GIMP so I have to say I'm a bit ahead of the curve right now. Now I have to wait for my totally not artistic classmates to catch up with me and my one friend who doesn't know what she is doing herself I think. She just has this feel about her that she desperately wants to know what she's doing and be better than everyone around her. Newsflash, that's not how you get ahead in life.

I am dead tired, bros. Good night. I really have nothing more to report.

Warblargbefuddle 10/22/2012

Ok, an update on the whole funeral scenario that had haunted me all day. We didn't go. Do you want to know why? Despite your answer I will tell you. People are so freaking judgmental that my mother decided not to go as not to be looked down upon by idiot relatives. She insisted that she didn't know the relative who passed very well anyways but I know that deep down she didn't want to get hurt anymore.

Her side of the family has so many issues. One of my uncles is a theif and liar, an aunt of mine is being a leech and her son is a bastard who needs to be put in prison for the rest of his life and evidently, the relative who died had an adopted son who totally screwed up himself and his parents. Being a drug addict and a 'robber', he caused his adoptive parents to sell their house to send him to rehab. When the mother got sick and the husband had passed away the son stole everything from her, sold her house and parked her in a nursing home. He then left his family to go to Florida with his alchoholic birth mother. WHAT A SCREWBALL.

I also seem to have no clean clothes to wear tomorrow so I sneakily snuck downstairs and popped in my whites and am waiting for the dryer buzzer to go off for the towel load my mom had going so I can go switch it. I hpoe I finish without being noticed tonight. I'm REALLY not up for a lecture on the way to school tomorrow. Seriously, I'm not. Also, I have to remember to bring my grades in tomorrow to the art academy or I'll get kicked out. No way I'm letting that happen.

I also got my hair cut again. It was getting long so I had it snip-snipped and now its amazingly short again. Ah wonderfully short hair. Well, I'm tired after a busy day. Goodnight Internet!

P.S. I don't know why but my posts have been rather long lately. Maybe they'll stay long so you can read more. Taa-taa!

No NORMAL Family 10/21/2012

Ok, so you know the phrase "You shake everyone's family trees and a few nuts are bound to fall out"? When our family tree was shaken, all but my parents and us kids (me and brother) were NOT completely screwed up. My aunt sent us photos of our Grandparent's house on the inside...and it looks like a garbage dump pushed into a single house. Its gross, dirty and probably not safe for even a roach to live in. My grandparents from one side are crazy as it is. Hell, I can't even consider then Grandparents! The grandfather bought me dolls (I HAVE ALWAYS AND ALWAYS WILL HATE DOLLS). I have never, in my entire life, played with a doll. They are way too girly for my tastes. And yet, he bought me three.

 For years they sat on my old dresser as painful reminders of how little he cared about us. Last year, I threw them away. I din't need them. That one side of grandparents have had no influence on my life. I have met that grandmother twice in my 16 years of life and the only reason I don't count the first is because I was still crapping my pants and barfing on myself. Seriously, if you want to show you care, at least visit us once every so often. She never even wanted to meet me the second time which was this past Summer. It was complete and utter chance we saw one another. I don't hate them I just don't want anything to do with them. They have cause me and my parents FAR too much pain to ever want to have a relationship with them.

We're going to continue on the topic of family for now. Tomorrow, I'm going to a funeral of a woman I have never met. My mother's aunt (or maybe it was great-aunt...). I have never met her in my entire life. I didn't even know who she was until my mom told us we were going tomorrow. I was surprised and a bit confused but whatever, lets just go and get it over with. I hope its not too awkward. Wish me luck!

Biggest Post in AGES! 10/21/2012

Since I haven't updated in the three shakes of a lambs tail that I promised I would a while back (I said I would post more often...I evidently lied!). I have a big update for everyone. First of all, this is going to be a bit of a sadder post. For one thing, the college I eventually want to go into requires GPAs that I have not and probably won't ever have. I am so depressed about that. I have a 2.3 (I think) and you need a 3.0 to apply and the past grades I have not met their criteria. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I can't tell my parents because they would probably be pissed beyond belief that I disappointed them. I couldn't handle that. I just...wouldn't. I would break and then...what would there be to make me stay?

Another BIG thing is that my brother has been keeping a huge secret from my parents and I. Before you flip, my parents know now. He says and insists (through texts, mind you) that he loves this girl who lives in the same state as us about an hour from here. I, personally, think its a load of horse crap and he should stop being such a big princess about it and man up. He should have told our parents face to face but they had to find out by taking his phone. They almost had to live up to his "out of my cold, dead hands" remark he clutched that stupid thing so bad. They read it and I was stunned. I can not BELIEVE he would do that. He's 14! 14!!!!!! That's way to young for any true love or relationship. I think he needs to consider this in a realistic light which I think he is not mature enough to do.

One final thing which ends up being two things. One, I have a cold that makes me want to lay in bed all day and use up boxes of tissue at a time. I feel like crap scraped off of the shoe of a man who rode in every taxicab in New York in a single day. Its that bad. To add to my problems my depression is back and is making things generally more difficult. I find myself unwilling and unhappy even though I fake a smile to nearly everyone I know. What's the point of faking everything anymore? I hate being so...normal. I had a dream that I did something important in my life someday. Maybe I will. I just have this burning impression on my very soul and being that I am meant for something greater than I am now. What is it...? I'm so confused.

Well, now that you're in information overload, I should say goodnight! GOODNIGHT!
.....I need happiness (sadface)

Sickness... 10/17/2012

Guess what...I'm sick. I have some sort or cold or flu beause I am endlessly tired, my throat is sore and I am sooo dizzy. I should probably be resting right now but I am talking to you all. You beeter be thankful (haha). I went to school anyways cuz my parents are strict and really tight and I just said whatever and gagged my way to school. I feel like crap. I'm going to bed. I can't even remember what I did today...

Conspiracy Nut? 10/16/2012

Who doesn't like a good conspiracy, am I right? I'm watching Coma Conspiracy right now and it seems as though I missed an episode but its still REALLY interesting. I have no idea wha's going on but its cool nonetheless. Just got to the part with the spanish kid and the battery. Now that I think about that it sounds remarkably hilarious! Sorry kid but didn't your parents ever say...you know..."DON'T EAT BATTERIES OR YOU'LL DIE". Seriously, kiddies. Eating batteries is for chumps. (Ok...commercial break...I AM TOTALLY LOST)

In other news, I am no longer extremely excited about the art classes in the free academy. It has projects. I HATE assigned art because it never lives up to my personal goals and expectations. I REALLY hope they find a way to buy back my lost expectations with a bit of freedom and a way to set my own goals and to set my own expectations. I feel that this imposes on my creativity  These programs they provide better be better than a 2 pound steamy steak on a chilly winter's day or I'm gonna flip some tables. Ok, rant over. Have a wonderful evening.

Hooray for ART! 10/15/2012

Today I got an acceptance e-mail from a nearby art academy! i am now taking after school digital arts and animation classes for 8 weeks! High-five! I will probably continue once this singular 8 weeks is over because they offer so many free programs. I signed up on Friday...ANXIOUSLY waited all weekend and then finally got my beloved acceptance e-mail just today. Thank goodness! Classes start tomorrow so I was beginning to panic. Have a wonderful evening everyone!

Plus...we had to get a new microwave. Ours wasn't heating up food so I texted my dad and mom. My mother, bless her soul, told me not to use it. RIGHT, like I'll use a microwave that DOESN'T HEAT THINGS UP.  Other than a noisemaker, it as useless sooo, yeah. Here, have this GIF.

Brain...why you no DRAW 10/12/2012

I think I can relate to every artist when they say that they hate it when they have a vision in their head and it doesn't quite work out the way they pictured it. Like right now. I have this drawing in front of me...I had an awesome vision for it...and it's not working out the way i thought it would. Maybe I could cheap out and do three like frames and make it a gif...I SHALL! The character is sitting in front of a candle and I'm working on light and shadows. Its a tough concept and I'm working very hard to get it done and posted. I promise it will be amazing even though you'll never see it. Sorry people, anonymous here! Still, I feel kinda bad none of you know who I am. I've always wondered what it would be like to not be known  by anyone and still be known as someone on the Internet. Now is the time! I am going to go to bed.

 My brother pitched a fit, got his phone taken away and was a real jerk tonight. He deserves every punishment he gets. The only problem is the phone is currently sitting on the sink of the only bathroom of the house. If he find it, I have no doubt he will take it and delete all his  messages and history  At that point my father will call the phone company, get the messages and he'll be in even BIGGER trouble. I wish he was more honest. Well, tomorrow oughta be fun. MY parents are going out to dinner for their anniversary on Sunday so that's a cute little sidenote. Now, for an awesome gif I found floating about on the internet today.

I Think I Just Derped a Little 10/11/2012

I was talking to a new friend from one of my online lessons and they asked me if I have a DeviantArt to which i replied happily yes and gave them my username. Then...they said something that made my inner artist celebrate and almost explode out of my chest. The said...QUOTE..."I think I've heard of you before. Yeah, I have!" I...DERPED...ALL OVER DUH PLACE...I was so happy I was finally getting the recognition I feel I somewhat deserve. I cannot say how happy that made me feel. That was...amazing. Well, I just had to share this news with everyone.

In other news, I'm doing well in my Web Design classes. I'm making websites for peoplez and stuffs going great. I used a picture of Alduin's wall from Skyrim (sorry Bethesda) and she gave me 100%. I'm doing better than usual right now! Wish me the best of luck in getting my algebra grade up though. I HATE MATH. It's too hard...

NOTHING! No, seriously. 10/7/2012

What do I say other than I didn't do ANYTHING today? I baked a pie, did some sewing and did some side work for my mom. I did nothing else today...To make up for this boring post, I shall give you two pics today! I am officially questioning why I even decided to post today...It'll come to me.

Sharing is CARING 10/5/2012

Look, if you're not using the laptop charger and my laptop is going to die it seems like the most logical route to let me sue it while your battery slowly goes down. Maybe logic just isn't your thing. Maybe you should act more adult and let me just use it for 20 minutes while you chat with your girlfriend online. Oh, wait, she's not your girlfriend? You only text and chat and talk to her more than you interact with your family. You really need to be honest with yourself and grow some balls before you start pitching for the other team. Meh, whatever. I'mm just sit over here...hoping you don't read this over my shoulder.

What's Up with my Family?! 10/4/2012

M whole darn family has been so short fused recently. My dad shouts whenever someone else shouts and they shout whenever something bad happens even when its small and tiny. COME ON. You're all more mature than this. Just because something doesn't go your way doesn't give you any right to flip out at the people around you and it certainly doesn't give them permission to crack back at you. I am actually enjoying the company of my younger brother quite a bit right now while watching the making of Star Wars before bed. I really love the Yoda part about him being a puppet but him having to be intelligent and small. I think it's actually interesting. I admit it, I'm a nerd. Well, I have to go to bed. Wish me luck in getting everyone to calm the heck down. Night!

I'm Becoming a Shipping Otaku 10/2/2012

I can truly say to you today that things have been going better than usual. I actually scavenged enough time to make a legitimate banner for this blog! I must say it looks simply lovely with it's color effects and lettering. I shall now shed a tear in its glory. Maybe I'm taking this a bit too far, yes? The only discouraging thing is that views to my blog have plummeted and that's kind of a sad thing for me considering I thought nobody cared in the first place. Still no comments on anything but I bet with enough time and entries I'll get one...someday. Well, I'm tired and am really not supposed to be on the internet this late so...goodnight internet!

P.S. In addition to everything above...I'm turning into a fangirl for a certain anime guy..."HE'S MINE BACK OFF" I screech to all the others. If you knew me, you'd get it and considering NONE of my friends know about this blog, nobody but me gets it. I'm so terrible, I'm shipping characters with my friends for laughs and kicks and I'm leaving them either pissed or excited. Is there no medium?! Love ya'll. Actual goodnight this time.

^^^ This is me over the anime guy ^^^

Darn you Creativity! 10/1/2012

Despite my need to get drawings and animations done, my mind has deserted me, leaving my imagination blank like a desert. If only I could have a full 24 hour day of coffee and silence to get a crap-load done on my movie. My-oh-my, how I hate this thing we call 'growing up'. I'm just trying to get by. School has allowed me much spare time after classes but without my tablet and proper drawign software at school there's very little I can do besides move things around and color-code thr script. Its annoying that I can't seem to keep focused on one thing for a long amount of time and I get so discouraged so easily. I'm going to go and doodle in my tiny sketch book in hopes of awakening some spark of brain and creating something on paper. Wish me luck!

On another note, I still hope we get rain. I've been waiting for such a long time I think I deserve a good storm before Winter hits with its snow and flurries. This Winter, I'm going to sit out on the porch with some tea and a good book and just let life flow for a bit. Sounds good, right? I hope it works out the way I plan. Maybe I'll sneak in a photo of my snowy porch once it rolls around. Well, I know its still early but I'm posting. Have a good night everyone. I hope you're doing well.

I did this when I was about 6. I've always been a doodle bug. PLUS...

HAPPY 50TH POST!