I Passed and was ACCEPTED! 8/8/2012

Today I got two bits of good news and found out one scary thing...

FIRST GOOD NEWS! I finally got the Accepted stamp on my application to the semi-online school! Turns out some bozo left my info in a box and it could have been accepted weeks ago. Humans at their BEST! BUT! Whatever. I digress.

GOOD NEWS TWO! I passed my Driver's Ed Test. You needed 75% to pass and I got 84%. Yay me, Even though I would have rather failed it and never driven again for the rest of my life...again, I digress.

SCARY NEWS! A year ago this August 29th I had to go to the hospital for SEVERE stomach pains. They did every test under the sun but only after they had done a CAT Scan did they see it was a pound and a half tera toma tumor attached to one of my ovaries. They had to do emergency surgery to remove it and thats where the scary part comes in. At that stage I had a 40-50% chance of survival. DAYUM.....(and I don't usually swear...)

I took this picture...IT WAS SO FREAKY...HE JUST STOPPED AND TURNED LIKE...CREEPINESS.....

DO NOT WANT 8/7/2012

Tomorrow I take my drivers test (which I will pass) and have to schedule my in-cars. PLEASE let the schedules of the instructors be filled until two years from now. I don't want to drive on the freeway, I don't want to drive at night, I don't want to drive. I'me freakin' scared to death here. I don't even KNOW WHY! I need serious help. What if something happens...? I'll never forgive myself. I'll become my own Tobari Kumohira. He never drove. HE WALKED FROM IRELAND TO JAPAN. DOES NOT COMPUTE BUT I WILL. I hate cars now...they flip me out.

DARCIA, YOU BOSS

I...Hate...Driving 8/6/2012

I don't want to drive. I don't want to drive. I don't want to DRIVE. I DON'T WANT TO DRIVE. Are my wishes obvious now? I'm so scared. I hate that I'm so freaked out. It's been my top stresses for a WHILE now. Look, that's all I want to say today. Carry on with your business. OH! Maybe I forgot to mention a person I hardly know has super-dumped stuff on me...Oh, nothing big. Just...that his foster mother's boyfriend is a piece of garbage and is causing the kid to draw close to destruction. YEAH, NOTHING BIG.  I don't know what to do.........

This is how I feel........

Fate Sucks and so does DRIVING 8/5/2012

I REALLY don't want to do driving school. I have this unnaturally strong fear of driving. I hate it. If I was the only driver on the roads I'd be fine but...I'm scared to death of even sitting in the driver's seat. WHY?! I'm sick of it. I REALLY want to get over this fear. It's so paralyzing I get behind the wheel and forget which pedal is the BRAKE. I need serious help...but I can't ask my parents for help...they don't need to worry about this. Help meeeee......

^^^^^How I feel I drive^^^^^^

*sigh* I'm such a Lovesick Puppy 8/4/2012

I have recently realized...I like Dating Sims and Digital Novels. I know they have another name but I can only think of this one. *sigh* I got a Maker of sorts and am doing my own Fantasy Sim. WHY NOT?! It will be based around these 3 or 4 guys who each have a special ability that makes them totally unique and you get to choose who to fall for. I am blushing right now. This, however, means I have to learn to draw people. I HATE drawing people because they ALWAYS end up with bean-shaped heads. HAVE MERCY ON ME, DRAWING SKILLS. Well, time to go write their descriptions. MAYBE I'll link you to it when it's done...maybe.

My friend did come over today. It went well. Yeah...let's go with that...

Someday, I'll take my husband here and we'll kiss under these lights. 

All Day in a Brick Chair 8/3/2012

Ok, ok it wasn't actually made of brick but MAN IT FELT LIKE IT. These auditorium seats were hard as freakin' rocks. And we sat there...FOR HOURS. It was for a religious gathering but STILL. The seats are cushioned but are hard as bricks. I recorded the whole thing to listen to it in the absolute comfort of my bed. I like to listen to stuff there. My friend is coming over tomorrow. Somehow I'm not looking foreward to it...maybe it will be ok?

Well, this was a short post...BYE!

DAH SHORTNESS 8/2/2012

(HAIR CUT YESTERDAY) I got my hair...cut so short. I got 12 inches off and donated them to Locks of Love. I have always wanted to do this and finally had enough hair to do it and I went for it. My new hairstyle is short but I LOVE IT. It's like...I finally found something that fits me. I was always hiding behind my hair for the longest time and now that I surpassed it, I am on my way to a new me. My friend that took me to Cedar Point is coming over Saturday. I hope she keeps her jaw clenched and my brother steers clear.

Brother has been a total jerk today. I don't know why but he's been really short fused and bitey. And his words hurt...My mom is taking us to a religious thing tomorrow and Sunday and then another next Saturday. I mean I'm not against it it's just been I've been away for so long I don't know what to expect. I hope that someday I can be accepted into the group again. I feel so left out and it's my fault really. Well, I have to go sleep (THAT MEANS PLAY MY NEW DS GAME TIL 1 IN THE MORNING [it's Glory of Heracles]).

My friend drew a bunny. I made it 20% cooler.